Ignorance is strength
I imagine all of us in lock down by now have hit that point where what patience and resilience they felt they had suddenly crumbled. It could of been a casual remark, a glimpse of a news article, unwashed dishes or the expectation to just keep on smiling despite the rising panic and fear inside.
I hit the wall. Hard. Having a shower in the middle of the day so the kids wouldn’t see me cry, hard. As such, I have banned myself from the news and severely restricted my social media to knitted toys and kitty beans.
Ignorance is strength. How the echoes of 1984 seem to be following me… (last week’s blog post ‘sanity is not statictical’ was both a Fallout 3 and 1984 reference.
Anyhow, I normally keep my blog posts light hearted, and fairly impersonal, but I feel that in these times I was going to have to take that wall away. We are all sadly human, capable of love, of friendship, of joy of living, of laughter, of curiosity, of courage, of integrity. We are not hollow. But we are vulnerable.
If I go AWOL in the next few weeks, months, whatever lays ahead with lockdown, it will be because I have decided to further hide in my cocoon with my little family and wait for all this to be over with some form of sanity intact.
That was a somewhat heavy start, so let’s move on to the more light hearted nature of my blog posts – knitting! I have been making gifts, marrying to put forward some good karma. Two more hooded cowls, the Fallout pattern from last week, have fallen off my needles. Some arm warmers too.
Pattern details are again in last week’s post.
Lastly, I made these a good few weeks ago as a present for my nephew’s hamster, he should have been given them this weekend, but the trip to visit my family up north never happened, but I still want to share it.
Little hamster houses! Well, they’re supposed to be for rats so I scaled it down a bit, but still. Free pattern Cosmic Cozy by Susie Gourlay – dead cute and fantastic for using up odds and ends!
As such, with all of the above, I have used a fair bit of wool this week!
Wool Count
Starting total – 704
Wool used – 32 (5 this week)
Wool bought – 7
Wool given – 6
Wool gifted – 0
Total – 684
There is great strength to be found in recognising when enough is enough, and your mental health, and that or your family, are most important.
Many, many hugs, and all of my thoughts are with you.
On a lighter note, the arm warmers are lovely. I’m sure the hamster houses will get to a good home soon enough, we just have to sit tight a little while first.
Many many hugs and thank you. Sitting tight is what I’m doing and I think I have reached the point where I am fine with that.
I do hope all this ends soon though!